yesterday i met a new boy

well, technically, not a new boy. i think i've seen him several times already, and he used to be one of the prospects of a good friend.

in fact, that's how i know a lot about new boy. my friend liked him. no, correct that. not just liked him. i think she was in love with him.

now around that time, new boy was just a name to me. and then i saw him once and he was cute so i told my good friend, go go go. with his good looks and the "good on paper" stories, who was i to stand in the way of true love?

but then as most love stories go, theirs didn't pan out but they remained friends. and so, once in a while, i'd run across new boy. and every time i'd see him, i'd tell my good friend, sayang naman, gwapo na, okay pa.

yesterday, i got to hang out with new boy. and hanging out with new boy, i realized that more than being good on paper and really good looking, good boy is crush material.

he's tall (all the better to wear heels with).
he's kind (all the better to introduce to friends and family with).
he's good on paper (all the better to start a future with).
and he's got the most fantabulous smile (all the better to have kids with).

i must admit, i was smitten within five minutes of sitting beside him.

then i realized two major things:

first,

eto na naman ako, crush na naman.

clearly, in spite of my claims that i am, for the meantime, closing all door to the prospect of a relationship with anyone, it is second nature to me to "fall in like" with people. what if this person is a bum? (he's not) what if he has a kid somewhere out there? (he does) what if he's not available? (research, anyone?) in a matter of five minutes, i had forgotten about my promise to myself and was, sad to admit, imagining a future with this person. i am so frigging lame, am i not?

second,and more importantly i think,

diba bawal mag-ka crush sa ex-prospect ng kaibigan?

it doesn't matter that things didn't work out for them and it doesn't matter whether she still likes him or not. she got first dibs and no matter what she says, i don't think she'll think very kindly of me if she does find out that i have a thing for her boy. that's just how the world and friendships are like.

anyway, the possibility of me seeing the new boy in the future is pretty next to zero. and so let me also officially end her whatever fantasies i've harbored about my new crush. it's not going to help any, and with only four days this week and two pleadings to submit, i should be getting a move on instead of dreaming about my new boy.

all hotness notwithstanding.