surprise!

not the good kind this time around.

imagine yourself after ...
one morning meeting;
two meetings you forgot about;
breaking out into cold sweat after your chest started feeling like a heavy weight was placed on top of it and you can't breathe, and how it felt like this the entire afternoon;
conducting the direct examination in moot court in a blazer with lining and a malfunctioning aircon.

definitely, you wouldn't be at your prettiest. i'd even venture as far as saying you're almost ugly.

so even if you've been dying to meet a family member, be introduced to one, and be recognized as "the girlfriend", under the circumstances, you'd just cringe. or you could die.

i died.

figuratively, of course. although i'd rather think i'm just a ghost of the person i was yesterday.

he told me to meet him after my moot court. i thought that shouldn't be a problem until i saw that he was with his GORGEOUS sister who was in this GORGEOUS gown and looked AMAZING in full make-up and in spite of the fact that the wedding was at three and it was 1030 already, still looked AS FRESH AS A DAISY.

i felt like a maid compared to her. i felt smelly and shiny and short and effing ugly. it didn't help that i was in all black, which happened to be the color the waitresses at the pen wear. i was pangit pangit pangit.

so i just sat there, smiling like a cheshire cat all the time plotting in mind exactly how to give jay a piece of my mind about the evil little surprise he had of introducing me to his sister without warning.

then the bigger surprise came. his aunt passed away, barely a week after his cousin, the son of the same aunt, died of a heart attack at 42.

surprise.